Saturday, October 17, 2009

I just feel like i’m breaking in every way possible

"i’m not coping. i’m really not.
i’ve now got to the point, where i don’t want to wake up of a morning.
everything’s just screwed up, and i hate it!
i have depression, and i get counselling, but it doesnt help.
i just want to be happy!
i feel like there’s no point in living some days!
i have feelings for my best friend, who’s also a girl, and that’s just screwing me up worse!
my head’s a mess, and i just feel like i’m breaking in every way possible!
i went to a party a few months ago, and i got drunk, i nearly got raped, and after that i just wanted to kill myself, and i was trying, if it wasnt for my friends, i wouldnt be here.
some days i wish i did kill myself. i self harm, i try not too, but sometimes, it seems like the only release.
i miss being happy all the time, i miss the feeling that used to be there, now i just feel empty. and i hate it!

i hate life i really do.
i have to hide feeling so depressed all the time. i just pretend to be happy.

i want to have a real smile on my face. i want to feel like i have a meaning in life!

please help! ):"

Source: http://www.youthbeyondblue.com/2009/10/15/please-help-i-cant-take-it-anymore/