My body shakes and trembles with fear of being unloved, uncared for, i dont have the strength i thought i once did

"I dont know how to say this but i cant do it anymore. you have made me feel like a worthless inferior piece of shit. i just cant do it anymore im fucking done. you are taking over my life. i just feel like shit, why does this always happen? i like you so much but you keep dipping out on me. and everyone ive ever loved has left my side. i just cant do it anymore. i just want to go home i just want to go home. i want my bed i want my mommy. i want my daddy. thats all i want. i want the comfort of my own home the comfort of love. being loved. i just wanna do something drastic. something to show people how strongly they've impacted my life. how strongly they've made me feel this terrible. my body shakes and trembles with fear of being unloved, uncared for, i dont have the strength i thought i once did. i need to see a therapist. i need to seek help. im really not okay. i really dont think i am. i really just want to leave this world for awhile. god please help me. please come into my heart and help heal my scars. my torn and bleeding open wounds on my soul. i need you more then anything else in this world you are the only person who could possibly attempt to help me. i need to change. i need to fix my life. i need to fix myself. when so many things get you so down you just want to die to see if anyone would care, you know how worthless you really are. how desperate for love you really are. how desperate for attention. when you just want something so so bad but you cant accept it or find it."

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