It's not supposed to be like this

"I can't stand living on this earth anymore I already tried 3 times 1st time tried to run my car off the road into the freeway but tires blew 2nd time was going to hang myself in the garage but talked my self out of it last min and third time was I od on a bunch of sleeping pills 40+ and then was out for 2 days and then had a sizure and was sent to the hospital and they gave me a lot of ativan and now that I have the Ativan I have enough to finally end all of this I don't need this s*** anymore I'm so depressed and don't care who it affects I need help I've had such a bad life I'm only 20 it's not supposed to be like this.

FYI I don't need peoples f****** s*** say o your salfish because I don't give a f*** and no it's not girlfriend issues or I'm fat or she dumped me because those are some dumd f****** reasons to kill yourself and those one need to get over it I know I work in healthcare and people tell me there s*** try being abused at home and your mom can't do any thing and watching your brother and sister being abused and the way they try saying sorry is buying with cars or giving money and just not fesing up to what they did or trying to escape through a window because your dad was trying to Hert you or hearing your mom being beat in the next room or having to sleep in hotals or cars because you can't go home or having your mom telling you that she won't be able to see you for awhile and that you would have to stay with the person who Hert you.

There's more but I don't want to say any more it herts too much to even wright about it.
Now that's a better reason to kill your self so you don't have to remeber any of it no more flash backs, bad memories, no more pain of everything that happend."

Source: http://www.secrettalk.com/secrets/i-want-to-kill-myself-so-bad/14325341/