I need some help guys

"After 11 yrs , 2 kids (6&2) , being faithful , and a house husband (grow to work,grow to work basicly) my old lady told me tonight she doesnt love me anymore and wants to leave with the kids.

At 1st she said it was because I grow (which is fucked up cause she got me my 1st grow light 11yrs when I started) so i said I would stop , get a 9 to 5 and we could go live in a trailer then she said nope to late, I still wanna go.
Totally fucked up , out of nowhere shit, I just dont know what to do. Everything I have everydone in my life was for her and then her and the family, she was my 1st love , and I feel in my heart my last. I just cant stand the thought of her fucking some other dude and my kids being there, whats even worse Im right in the middle of harvest and dont even want to go over in the morning to take down more plants.
I truly am thinkiing about selling it all giving her all the money , tell her to keep the shit in the house and go kill myself. I just dont understand it, gave her a 100K+ house to live in, she got a 09 car I paid with cash, Ive never done shit, not even look at another bitch when I was alone , play perfect father, at home everyday and either take the kids to school or pick them up if not both. She has no job, has nothing to do but take care of kids, Ive been perfect and still she just doesnt love me anymore.

I dont want to give my kids a fucked up family, I rather just be gone and let that bitch go on and let her find them a new daddy like she will do even if I stay around.
I truly feel I was never ment to be happy in life, I did have a good 11yrs, my life sucked before and will suck after and I really dont think I can take it. Whats even worse she just acted like I was tripping and it was no big deal.

I need some help guys."

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