"When I read this forum I cried. I know there is no hope for my life, living with the addict who calls himself my husband when he is (rarely) clean and calls me a pig and a prostitute when he isn't. Those are the milder titles.
Not sure what I can get from you all but knowing I am not alone helps...........slightly.
How did I get into this situation? I married a man in a different country who now holds the purse strings and until I can get my head together I am stuck.
Most days I am suicidal and lonely. Other days I smile and laugh too loud but inside I am still suicidal and lonely.
He is an alcoholic and drug addict and of course "I don't understand the pain he is in "............poor poor him.
One of your posts was about the fact that we, the families /partners of the addict go through our pain sober. And oh the pain..........
I can't write anymore right now I am dying inside and I have lost me........"
Source: http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/showthread.php?t=23449