Every time I close my eyes

"So, I haven't been around because I've been doing pretty good in terms of my SA. I've been getting along with my co-workers, I've gone out with friends, been to parties, and I haven't been that lonely. I thought I was as close as we could get to being cured!

But then it all started to go downhill. I got in a lot of s*** at work to the point where I'm thinking terrible thoughts all the time. I called the distress centre in my city because I was thinking terrible thoughts about life and death. My heart hurts because of this incident, and every time I close my eyes I re-live the experience all over again.

But the worst is not the fact that I'm in trouble at work. The worst thing is that tomorrow is my birthday, and I have no one to spend it with. I'm going to be all alone on my birthday.
My life sucks. I am so depressed."

Source: http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/forum/f35/all-alone-and-depressed-69357/