I want someone that understands

"so today I'm feeling sick
mom is forcing food down my throat and threatening if i dont eat "I'm gonna send u to that place where crazy people go" words of my mom
this is dumb u cant force me to eat and to tell u the truth going to that place may help me better than my home
i cant keep the food down and the anti depressants are making me sick!
i hate it here i just want to leave
i seriously cant wait til school starts cuz then i wont have to be here
I'm not a part of the green club at the community center nemore
and i might not continue the hug a tree club at school
idk I'm just so lost
no one exactly is helping me
i want someone that understands
but no guy wants me
i went to a party last Saturday and got drunk and made out wit this really hot guy
then the next day he text me saying he was sorry for what happened and he really doesn't like me that way
sad huh? whatever
my friend koryne said that he said that he didn't like me that way because he said i looked sick
great stupid Ana cant even get me a date :(
i hate her but i cant leave her
its like I'm in love and stuck
same way wit the blade I'm stuck and no one can help :(
everyone says I'm different and they miss me but they wont help me they just leave me alone because they say i look sick and dont wanna b associated wit me wow
u probably think i may have low self esteem rite now
u bet ur ass i do
its so low it may as well be dead :(
i just want a real friend that can try to help me
its like i want help but i cant stop its so hard :(
i just wish people didn't feel sorry for me and just tried to help"

Source: http://www.thoughts.com/theatregeek/blog/tired-and-done-360688/