It is also sad but also great... it is sick but also good ... it is depressing but also a new beginning

"I am disgusting... but on the other hand I keep accusing the world of being disgusting... they are disgusting and nausious , foul and repellent but I am not ....what a fool. H. is such a fool. He is an idiot . He must be thrown off the cliff right now.... he deserves nothing but a slap in the face. That would hurt though, but I hate myself to such a degree. Lets say I don't appreciate pain. but I want to endmy life painlessly , something like a combination of three chemicals would be great , you just feel nothing but a sedative effect and then you cease to exist . Isn't that great. After the procedure it's all over and you don't have to suffer anymore . that is fantastic . It is also sad but also great... it sick but also good ... it is depressing but also a new beginning "

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