I feel like hurting myself

"My husband and I are separated. I have two small children. They constantly need my love and attention. I'm a college student and I'm pretty busy with that.

Well, as each day end, I feel worst. I go to bed crying. I barely pay any attention to my children because I'm lifeless. Every time I think about my husband I cry and cry. I can't do my homework because a million thoughts are racing through my head. Basically, I feel like I'm lifeless. I have many thoughts of just letting the pain go. I keep telling myself that I need to be strong for my children. I need to get up and read to them like used too. Play them, teach them something. Instead, I just sit there staring into space. I feel so horrible just doing that to them. I can barely eat, sleep, or get up to do something. This is could be the worst part; I feel like hurting myself.

I have no one to speak too. My parents are controlling and they would just lecture me. I can't speak to family because they would just go tell my parents. I can't speak to my husband because he already thinks I'm crazy. I really don't have any friends. And, the friends who I do have, probably wouldn't even listen.

I was wondering is there any good forums? Or, people who may listen to me? Of course, I would return the favor. I suppose that I'm looking for a friend. Can anyone offer any advice to me. I need to get my life straighten out for my children and my husband. Hopefully, no one will look down at me. Thank you for listening."

Source: http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/comments/9fnd1/i_have_reached_a_deep_end_and_i_dont_know_how_i/