"DEATH is the only way out..
Well I quit cutting, quit sniffing..But I guess that wasn't the problem..You see when a demon or the devil, or a negative force has it cut out for you to just live in misery from the start..there is nothing you can do..I often felt as if I wanted to go back home, but now things that are happening on this earth are kind of forcing me to go back to where I can from..Dust..(On a physical level.) somewhere else maybe on another..
My twinflame is just not cooperating..Why won't my other half cooperate? I don't know, but it has caused me great pain. A world of no pain is a perfect worl dindeed, and if it aint that I can't live here. I am going to give God a few days to kill me, if not I will pray for him to take me away miraculously, if that doesn't work, then I will kill my own self. There is no need to be stuck here with such "gifts" and connections. Being lied to constantly by my twinflame is not my forte. To be a twinflame to a man that will take you to the fiery pits of hell and back just to insult you is not what I wanted. It is nothing I can handle. I can not handle immaturity, I can not enjoy my youth because I've seen too much to waste on what the youth enjoys doing. I can not act my age, but only older and wiser. The only thing is I'm too sensitive to handle all of this, and I will be leaving this world this year.
I want to say this.: To all of you who TRULY cared about me, which I feel were few to none at all, Thank you. I appreciated it and I'msorry for leaving you behind. Apparently you are mor stronger than I am. I used to say "Shall this day come, I could not live or should not live"..Well that day has come and I shall not live. I knew something bad was going to happen to me soon, but I am glad I got it out of the way sooner than before, or I would have had to stay here for a very long time.
So farewell, I have no idea if you will ever see me again. I am a Christian, but one who has seen too much and one who has been thru enough. It has been enough now..So I must go.
Peace,
and love to all..
(ME)"
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According to the World Health Organization, approximately one million people die from suicide every year. This globally translates to roughly one suicide every 40 seconds. This does not include suicide attempts; which are up to 20 times more frequent than completed suicides.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
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