"Whenever I see you, I want to kill you. But for thinking that, I want to kill myself. Why am I like this? I don't know. I wont be anything but a dead body before too long.
Slit wrist and veins full of alcohol and cocaine, I sit here miserable. I hate my actions, looks, and the way I treat people. I knew it was too good to be true. John was just another blockade for me to live longer then I was suppose to. He was practically my life, my oxygen... now that he has left me for Maria, I have no use to this world...I'm a terrible person taking up other peoples oxygen.
John kept me alive, and made me want to wake up every morning to see a blue sky. He got me away from Vodka, Marijuana, Cocaine, and self-harm. He don't understand how much he is to me, and I don't think he'll ever understand that. Although he should, he wont...
Mom, Dad, I love you with my whole heart and I know everything that you're about to go through will be hard. And I know you haven't known about any of this drug and self-abuse stuff. I'm sorry you have to find out about it through this letter, but this is how it has to be. I'm glad you hadn't known about any of this, because I wouldn't want you to worry about me. I love you guys more than anything living. You two where the biggest effects on my life. and I thank you for that.
Tonight, August 24, 2009, will be my death day. Goodbye.
Much love,
Becca."
Source: http://sumneraustin.blogspot.com/
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According to the World Health Organization, approximately one million people die from suicide every year. This globally translates to roughly one suicide every 40 seconds. This does not include suicide attempts; which are up to 20 times more frequent than completed suicides.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
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