"I have been diagnosed many things, including bipolar and depression and what not. After suffering my whole life, i don't think i have bipolar, where as i have a mood disorder with symptoms of depression. I frequently want to kill myself, and rarely try anymore.
I'm too scared that i will spend eternity in hell if i commit suicide, and untill i know that i won't burn forever, i wont do it.
I'm trying very hard. I have beaten of a 5 year battle with dope and booze, as well i have quit smoking for 3/4 of a year. I try to better myself everyday, but i still am dealing with short intense depressions that make me want to kill myself. I feel like i always am depressed, but really i have low self esteem and years of bad thinking patterns. I am a cool guy i guess, but i still don't quite believe it. I work everyday on thinking 'correctly' about myself and life in general, but its being a battle.
if anyone else has a similar experience feel free to contact me if you want to work on getting better togethter, or if you just want to tell me something. I would like to help."
Source: http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Battle-Depression/809122
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According to the World Health Organization, approximately one million people die from suicide every year. This globally translates to roughly one suicide every 40 seconds. This does not include suicide attempts; which are up to 20 times more frequent than completed suicides.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
Contact Information:
Shahnawaz.w.ali@gmail.com
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