"I am turning 19 next month and have been battling depression and social anxiety since 12. People say that everything is going to be fine one day and that I should keep holding on hope. LIES!!! I have been hoping that things would turn around someday for seven years. What is my reward? Nothing but this endless torture and pain, divorced parents and a broken family, and the betrayal of my boyfriend and a bleeding heart.
I am done with this life!!! I regret that I didn’t attempt my third suicide at 15 when I was so ready for it. I shouldn’t have listened to them and kept holding on hope. I am stupid and naive and have just deluded myself. Silly me!!!
I am here not for your sympathy or preaching, but only for efficient ways to die. I want it to look like an accident because I don’t want my family to know that it is a suicide and suffer from it. Any good ideas? Oh, I also wonder how to induce a heart attack in an easy way (e.g. which medicine). It is a good way to go. I appreciate your information in advance!"
Source: http://suicideproject.org/2009/11/seeking-a-way-to-die/