"I have no life..I have no choice, Its like im being pushed to do it.. I came to this country when i was a little girl, little do i know all i had to be put thru with this place..
I have a medical malpractice= pain everyday no medical help or anything, i am starving most of my days..i try to pay for my meds but cant so now i self medicate myself, I am Homeless an dont have a job, I can do Medical Billing, but this country say i have to get married to get my papers fixed in order to work,and ive been here for so long.. unfortunatly in NYC there are only grimmy people that ive came across that depress me more and try to take advantage of me, I am gay so im dealing with being a gay black woman, no women i know is really gay, mostwomen as well hurt me, they in it for the wrong reasons, I have no family my family disowned me because im gay..so im in pain physical and mental and in the streets of nyc, no job, no food , no place to stay, i want to babysitt because i can do that gig off the books but i think im in too deep i look depressed an noone talks to me, or wants to give me a simple gig.., an i dont know why i havent done it yet..maybe because i dont want to come back to this world in limbo, or be sent back here, or be in pain or unsucessfull with my suicide, i just want to go!! quick and painlesss and happy i want all my sadness to go away..so i can be relieved of pain lifted off my shoulders, all this can be resolved if i get the right person to marry me, and i will take care of them believe me..i do medical billing and general accounting, but my papers is fucked, and i want to move out of the U.S. so i can get the medical attention i need, but im stuck..i have no job/ money..I WANT TO GO To ENGLAND..but i cant and im suffering until then..i been going thru this for 4 years in the street starving, an depressed...SOMEONE HELP ME....I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO..but i suggest hanging myself or pills an i cant afford pills so i will hang myself..an i jus have to get drunk,and fucked up, and just do it... "
Source: http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/11813347
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According to the World Health Organization, approximately one million people die from suicide every year. This globally translates to roughly one suicide every 40 seconds. This does not include suicide attempts; which are up to 20 times more frequent than completed suicides.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
Recently, there has been an internet trend that involves people blogging about their suicidal intent. In a way, this can be a good thing because it can allow us to talk to these individuals and provide some hope. Unfortunately, these posts are frequently left unread like those of George Sodini, which resulted in the death of him and three other women.
With this blog, I want to find people who are seeking help online and post it in one place for people to access and utilize. These people may not have anyone else to talk to other than the people online or simply may not be able to afford professional help. If they are expressing their thoughts publicly on blogs, they will hopefully be receptive to comments on their posts. I hope to connect those who wish to give help through discourse, with those who need it.
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